I...well, it's been a weird couple of days, since the package arrived. I'm still...well, still going through a lot of emotions about it all. Thanks for all your views. It helps, having different viewpoints.
I've still no idea what to do with it - well, to be honest, I can't do anything yet. The yard are checking it all, in case I lied and it's not from a relative, but a bribe or gift of some form.
I'm not sure we can tell Mum. I just...well, I don't know how she'd react. But I don't think it would be good. She didn't even want me to keep his name, let alone now have any contact with him. And I can't blame her.
Like I said, it's not...I don't know, it's not the letter, the gesture - or whatever it is - that really gets me. It's the lack of control, I suppose. The fact he's done what he wants, and not even...let anyone react, let alone confront him. Perhaps those are the wrong words. Too...aggressive. I don't know when it comes to him.
All I can imagine is a weak man who liked to hurt other people - with words and deeds.
Anyway, that's all a bit depressing.
I'm back here on Weds - when I might finally get a drink with Murray! Honestly, he'll start to think I'm avoiding him...and then he might wonder why.
Mycroft gets his exam results on Thursday. I'm more excited and nervous than I ever was for my own results. I didn't even fetch mine. Nicky did, because she said I should know, even if I was trying to avoid it. Take some responsibility for my life.
have a bit of Elvis to cheer up a dreary post. Never fails to make me laugh.
And a book. I've never read it. It might tell me I've been doing it wrong all these years ;) ...'the homo cry from the darkness'...really.
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How on earth was the title of that book not 'a homo cry from the darkness'? They passed up an opportunity there.
Miss you.
I first assumed it was more like 'make your own homo'...an instruction manual? Recipe book? But then I saw it was a case study....I've done a few of them ;)
Miss you too. Lots. Stupid work. :)
A 'case study' for 'adult reading'. Yes...
Have you got your presentation all planned out?
I don't feel like anything in my head is planned out right now.
..any idea why I'm wearing my bike boots? I...have no clue why I thought I needed to put them on, instead of normal shoes.
More comfortable?
...they are comfortable.
I meant to say...my seminar's on Tues, so...hopefully sitting through some others will get my head wrapped back around that side of things.
What're you up to? Sherlock go off to bed okay?
Yeah, after he nearly wrote an epic poem about how stupid work is, and school, and exams, and...you get the idea. Mycroft and I are watching something about snakes.
It is all a bit stupid sometimes. I'm really sorry to leave you to deal with his post-camping come-down, plus general annoyance at my work. I'd much rather be there.
As it is I have 20 mins to kill on a platform waiting for my connection. Maybe I should busk.
I know, love. It's all right. We'd obviously rather have you here too, but I'm sure your presentation will help people.
hope so :)
Thanks. You always make me feel better about things in a way I hardly ever feel I do for you.
You do. I'm sorry if I don't tell you that enough.
you're fine. You just think first and open your mouth later, instead of digging yourself a hole like me :)
I think too much and don't say enough. You always make me feel better.
I'm glad. I don't feel like I'm very good at it. But that's not you, that's history blinding me to the present.
I've had two beers. I might not be making sense.
Did you make any money busking at the station?
can safely say Doncaster station this time on a Sunday is not a place people gather. There was one bloke asleep on some seats, a girl talking on her mobile the entire time, and me.
And no coffee.
No coffee? Barbaric.
the onyl thing more barbaric than railway coffee is no coffee.
Unless it's the other way around.
sorry, was finding/checking in to my hotel.
It's...the same as a million other hotels in the world. But there's a kettle, and instant coffee. So one step up from a cardboard box.
I need to sleep. So...goodnight.
Maybe call? If you're still up?
Good luck, Lestrade. I'm sure it will go well. Maybe busk at the convention instead of your presentation? Or write a song on your topic? ;)
Hope today goes well for you all, whatever you are doing. Do you know any of the other people at this conference, L?
I quite like Sheffield, but I've only ever been there when I've been going to The Crucible.
I'm sure there will be people I know, yeah.
Got cross-border child abduction this morning to kick the day off.
Well that's a serious issue to start the thing off Greg but I guess its all a bit like that!
I hope you're having a good day with the boys John :-)
Pretty good so far, thanks, although there is a fair amount of laundry involved.
Does Mycroft have to go to school to get his results?
AnonyBob - it is indeed all a bit like that. Arranged marriages abroad this afternoon - the forced ones, not the ones both parties know about and agree to.
Glad you're having a good day, John, boys.
Hey, Sherlock-
Saw this and thought of you, though I'm not sure if anyone has linked this here before.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/peggy/43-diy-ways-to-add-some-much-needed-sparkle-to-you
Personally, I'm planning on the coffee cup, the high heels, the collar, the tattoos, and the sneakers, but I'm also trying to think of where I could get a concrete floor to glitter...
I want to make those chocolates! And we should do it to Lestrade's sunglasses too I bet he would like it.
The chocolates look SO GOOD I agree, but I worry that the glitter would get stuck in my teeth forever. Which could be good, depending on what you're going for, but I think I'd just look like a demonic shark. How fun are those tattoos though? You could do a glittery butterfly.
You should look on pinterest, that's where I get all my good glitter pictures and ideas :)
If there was glue you could put on teeth that didn't wear off you could have all glittery teeth forever! I don't think John would let me though. The tattoo would probably be okay because it's like painting but with glitter.
They look like amazing ideas Z. I fully expect to be blinded when I get home, with every item in the flat glittery.
Wow, Z, those are great! I like the desktop and the magnets best. (Although those chocolates do look great! And also the tattoos. :))
(Although, if I did the desktop, I'd get a piece of shatterproof glass or plastic to put over it. Glitter, even smoothed out and varnished, makes a bumpy surface and might come off on things.)
I'm free! well...got homework :)
might hit the gym for the second time in a day....
How was it?
Interesting. Bit full on, you know? Had some people in with personal experiences. Some... Hard stuff to listen to. But helpful.
I'm glad it was helpful.
Well - I hope it will be, next time I'm faced with such a situation! :)
How're you? Mycroft texted me asking for recommendations on what to do with blackberries found in the hedge at the allotment.... I said pie. With apples. If you're having blackberry and apple pie I am very jealous.
Small Hobbit - he knows me! John, I've told him he's an arse, for leaving you with the kids. This is because my wife told me I was an arse for leaving her with ours - and what she says is always true ;)
We are, I'm afraid. I'll do my best to save you some, but Sherlock's going after it like a plague of locusts and I can't promise anything. Did you get dinner yet?
Darren - ha! To be fair, I'll be leaving him with the kids sometime in September for something similar, so it'll balance out. How are you?
You will? Fair play to you then mate. Not sure if the wife doesn't trust me, or if she knows I'd take the kids to do something so awesome she'd be missing out.
We're in the pub. Dinner is being spoken about. He keeps saying he should be working on his piece, not in here. Bet it's the first time he's ever wanted out of the pub to do his homework.
Oh god, thought you'd forgotten about this place.
ignore him. He's been allowed off the leash and is picking on me for trying to be good and do my work!
And have you done your work so you can go out and get in trouble? ;)
no! I haven't! I need him to stop leading me astray and let me go and do it!
Ha!
Christ John, he's just told me when you two are getting hitched! (I know, sworn to secrecy, I won't spill on here, promise)
No wonder he's been in the gym, trying to buff up in time, eh?
I think we both got started a little late there! It does seem to be coming up rather quickly now.
...is it wrong that I sort of want to see what drunken Lestrade posts are like? I mean, I imagine they're similar to the Lestrade-on-painkillers posts we occasionally get to see, but still. I am curious.
But of course, I want your presentation to go well, so get drunk tomorrow night. :)
Ella
He just asked me if I was going to dye my hair! Not speaking to him anymore.
Don't do it - I might not recognise you and then where would we be!
Darren - oh, that's just teasing...
Ella - I seem to recall a some rather lovely Christmas piss-up posting and commenting, a couple of years back? Adorable :-)
I object to dying (your hair) on the grounds that having your wedding photo self look drastically different than your usual self is stupid. As Sherlock would say. If ever there's a day when you're supposed to be wholly yourself, I'd say your wedding is it, grey hairs and all.
Ella
Yeah, God, be terrible if you don't recognise me. Bad enough you've started calling me LeGreg recently :)
Nameless Anon--I don't remember that! Or maybe I missed it when it happened. That settles it, somebody must get drunk again for Christmas this year, please. (Because that's definitely easier than me trawling through backlogs.)
Ella
LeGreg? Doesn't that mean "The Greg" in French?
Ella
He's trying to get used to calling me Greg. But old habits die hard. I'm LeGreg. Or Lesgreg or Lestreg. Or sometimes Lestradeg.
My hair is not being dyed! Nor am I wearing eyeliner, Darren...
Are you sure?
...well, if you insist. ;)
I wasn't insisting!
Mycroft says there'd better not be glitter involved.
It could be!
I think... just on the cake?
And obviously my entire suit.
Naturally...
christ look at the time. I'm going to my room and working!!
Best of luck!
I need it. Wish you were here.
I sort of like Lestreg...
The dogs keep looking for you.
I am afraid no pie survived. John is currently eating the last piece, and intends to blame Sherlock.
I hope your seminar goes well tomorrow.
Thanks Mycroft.
And I know I can rely on you for a bit of law, order and justice.
Danger, you better be out picking blackberries before I get back, in order to welcome me with open arms and baking pie.
Count on it.
I wish you were here too. Don't like sleeping without you.
Mm. My bed is distressingly empty. Or at least...full of all the wrong things. And doesn't smell right. And isn't snoring or nicking all the covers ;) and is cold.
You could've taken the dogs...they snore and nick the covers too. :)
they don't smell right. By any stretch of the imagination. And they don't drool as much as you ;)
All lies! They definitely drool at least as much as I do.
They don't do that thing that you do when you're falling asleep - get all twitchy fingers that tickle me.
They'd just flex their claws and have my throat out.
And their noses are wetter.
The last part I'll agree with.
spose I should go to bed in a bit.
Ran three miles and swum half of one this morning. Then ate a huge breakfast to cancel out any benefits.
It is getting late I suppose. Are you ready for your thing tomorrow?
Think so, yeah. Talky bits, group work, guest speaker, conclusions, dreading Q&A.
There's an annoying woman here. I hope she goes to someone else's talk.
Annoying how?
She thinks it's AMAZING that I'm gay and we've adopted two boys (told her we haven't), and it's just BRILLIANT that that can happen these days and she's somehow managed to equate glitter with Sherlock being brought up by us, as if no kid with straight guardians would ever touch the stuff. a few of us were talking earlier, and I'd mentioned returning to find you and the flat completely coated in glitter...she just jumped in the conversation.
I don't know, she's being...sort of nice? In a completely over the top way. Like she wants to show off just how amazingly open minded she is or something. Mainly annoying because she doesn't do much listening and a lot of talking. Which makes her stand out a bit, as most of us here are trained to listen and not say a lot.
Which makes her stand out a bit, as most of us here are trained to listen and not say a lot.
Hm, yeah. Bit odd. She might be nervous, I suppose.
Yeah, not sure she's police, either. Might be staff. Or someone sent to watch us all ;)
ANyway, night all.
Danger, ring me if you want/are still awake? Like to say goodnight to you properly ;)
I will. Love you.
Love you too.
You really should start the boys on a teleportation device, if time machines are going to remain banned.
I second the request for a teleportation device! Best of luck tomorrow, L.
AftSO
Best wishes for the seminar, L. Hope all the questions are intelligent ones.
Good luck with your seminar, Lestrade.
Thanks everyone :)
...no one's asleep so far!
Awake people is always a good sign Greg :-) I'm glad its going ok.
Good luck with the presentation! I hope you have a great rest of the day.
No one sleeping is always good! I hope it all proceeds smoothly.
(Was that woman serious about the glitter? Glitter is an out-loud sort of decoration and Sherlock is an out-loud sort of person, they go together perfectly! Besides, sparkles are very satisfying. :))
Seminar all over. i think it went down pretty well.
Got to get myself to a 'people trafficking to the sex trade' talk now...
RR - think she just put glitter, flamboyance and gayness together in a stereotypical way? I don't know,
You lot are quiet.
I'm free. And off to have a swim. :)
Only weapons trafficking to go and I can come home!
Who asked about Mycroft and results? Just remembered don't think anyone answered?
He can collect them from school on Thurs, if he doesn't, they get posted. or I think he could arrange to have them posted anyway. But we're going to go up on the bikes and pick them up :)
It was me that asked. It's a real rite of passage is collecting exam results, one of the first times it's all just you and nothing your family can do. I'll be on the other side giving out exam results on Thursday morning, it's always a morning of extremes!
You lot are quiet.
I'm still a bit speechless about the glitter thing. O_O
Yay for almost done!
I recall test results being posted--not sent toe by mail, but posted on the bulletin board outside the office. (The standardized test results were sent through the mail, though, and there was no way to pick them up earlier--the school didn't get them ahead of the students.) so it took me a few to figure out what you meant!
I had a swim this morning, making the most of my first child free day in ages, and I can't believe how much better I feel for it :-)
I hope your swim makes you feel great Greg :-)
When I got my results RR I had to stand around for hours at school to be personally handed them by my teacher all the while knowing that some members of my family already knew my results! I'd have given anything for results through the post :-)
To be honest the bulk of the staff in any school don't know much before the kids. The exams officer, the head and deputy are the only ones who know a day early. That said, you wouldn't believe how sneaky some staff can get about trying to find out earlier :)
John hjon johnnycake John John danger
I luv you johnnycake (that's in autocorrect how is that in his autocorrect?)
John. I have been accosted my a miscreant wearing Homer Simpson shorts and waving a bottle of Bollinger. And using my phone to leave silly messages.
And you're sure that miscreant isn't you...?
Yes.
Spoken to Murray recently?
And why does my phone autocorrect to johnnycake??
Oh no... I have not. Do I need to?
What are you typing in for it to autocorrect??
You don't need to.you might WANT to.
He's just jumped on me in a jacuzzi in Sheffield shouting 'champagne for the condemned man!' after molesting my phone.
and...I think we're about to be thrown out of the jacuzzi by a cross looking lady.
Welcome to life with Murray. You might as well get used to it.
sounds like an interesting evening ahead for you Greg!!
Don't be too kind to him will you Murray ;-)
He got us thrown out!
I was having a lovely time relaxing...
Was typing Johnny, Johnnycake ;)
Johnny is a real word! It shouldn't autocorrect at all.
MURRAY, DO NOT GET HIM ARRESTED. I MEAN IT.
I take it, then, that you didn't want to wait until Lestrade got back to London, Murray? ;)
MURRAY, DO NOT GET HIM ARRESTED. I MEAN IT.
...or we will have to revise the Glare Scale?
Also I definitely have a mental image of Murray cannonballing into the jacuzzi.
Ella
Glaring will be the least he'll have to worry about.
Homer Simpson shorts and a bottle of Bollinger? Wonderful picture :-)
I hope you two have a lovely, and legal, time tonight. I hope you stocked up on ibruprofen for the hangover :-p
(O level results I had to queue up and get handed in person by the Headmistress who tried to convince me to stay on to do A levels before she'd hand them over. I was unimpressed with her tactics. Eventual (single) A level result came in the post)
Help. M
DON'T LISTEN TO ME IM HAVING A GREAT TIME MURRAys ACE
What are you doing to him, cheeseface? I want him back in one piece!
Ella - I suspect you may get to see drunk posting sooner rather later :-)
Murray - play nicely :-)
NOTHING. You saidyoU wouldnt callmed that after Paris!!! bastard
You said you'd leave my dates alone after Paris - pretty sure this counts!
Oh, I hope so. But I think I was assuming that drunken posting would be happening in john's presence so as to avoid the general anxiety that seems to be happening londonside (cheeseface??). So I feel bad for John. Slightly less bad for lestrade who may or may not be being held against his will.
Ella
John - "cheeseface" - you *have* to tell us this story.
Lestrade will be fine...probably.
Nameless - I'll do a post. I did mention it once, but it was a long time ago.
he's stealing my phone and feeding me fish and chips and whisky and
and...??
And here I thought you'd just been hanging out with too many 7 yr olds.
Ella
Lestrade - sounds terribly civilised and generous. Truly a god amongst men.
John - oh thanks, it's ringing absolutely no bells for me.
I've never been so glad not to be carrying my handcuffs.
Ha!
Homer Simpson shorts and a bottle of Bollinger? Wonderful picture :-)
I can honestly say it's convinced me John is definitely the man for me
John, don't want to worry you, but your boyfriend has just staggered into the pub I'm in with, I presume, Murray, and he's wearing a headband with antlers on it.
You've taken a picture, right?
he made me
You doing all right?
I have to work tomorrow... really not drinking more.
At least you've already done your presentation.
have afeeling he planned quite carfully. never advertisig my intentions on here again if it means being jumped on in a jaccuzzi
you ok? bouys> ok?
We're fine. There's still pie. We still miss you, but Murray had to get you sooner or later...
probably best. least I won't be faling drunk to bed with you.
Hope he doesn't think he's sleeping in my room.
It sounds like you're coping with the unexpected rather well, lestrade. :)
Ella
Got a nice pic of them holding each other up and laughing, yeah. I'll get it sent to you.
Calmed down now. Still denting the whisky bottle though, whatever he says about not drinking any more.
Hope he doesn't think he's sleeping in my room.
Wouldn't count on that...
Darren - ha, thanks. Sounds like it's not going too badly then.
if he really doesn't prove of me he's picked a shit place to knock me off, hotel stuffed with coppers.
Have you pointed that out to him?
...Houston, we have a combination alcohol+autocorrect fail. What just happened?
Ella
OH that's meant to say approve. Sorry, I forgot to read in my "drunken Brit" inner voice.
Ella
Ella I don't know
Johnnycake yes. He says one Mrs Holmes is worth a thousand coppers. i told him...don't remember what I told him. i handcuffed him to the bar though, to stop him. hope whoever they are got the keys
I thought you didn't have your handcuffs with you...
no. not mine. that's why I hope someone's got their keys. to be fair, he put them on his own wrist, i just did the bar
Ah, of course. Don't know what I was thinking.
You handcuffed him to the bar to stop him from offing you because he doesn't approve of you and he thinks Mrs H will get him off the hook? Have I got that right?
Ella
I'm sure this shouldn't be as funny as it is :-)
Ella....he might approve? but just in case. I think. Not sure now.
He's been frree. we're being kicked out.aaaa gin
Back to the jacuzzi! (I hope.)
If he approved of you before, handcuffing him to the bar might've altered the situation.
Ella
he did it half himself!
I really have to go to bed.
must add thankfully Murray has his own room, no in my bed
I hope you don't wake up with a hangover, lestrade.
Ella
I'm sure you'll both be happy about that in the morning. Going to sleep now?
G'night, Lestrade. Hope the hangover doesn't bite too hard.
L: Saw this, thought of you. Suddenly I feel quite a bit more sympathy for this crew: http://ph.news.yahoo.com/nude-swim-makes-waves-report-134612672.html
*whispers* Morning L - how are you feeling?
I'm fine...considering.
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