6 June 2012

We're Leaving Together...

Danger made me do it*

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. Everything I can think to say to you to try to help I know you'd take as criticism, which is the last thing you need. So talking to you always feels as if I've left everything important unsaid.

2. Sometimes you fight too hard, and it turns people against you. Calm down, let your actions speak for themselves, everyone important will realise how good you are.

3. After years of never wanting to see or speak to you, I'm in the right place now to finally talk to you. But I'm still too scared to take that final step, for entirely new reasons.

 4. It would be completely unfair, but sometimes I want to push you until you snap, just so I know where that point is.

5. You're beautiful, talented and one of the kindest people I know. What scared you from letting people in?

6. It's not all about you. Stop being an arsehole and just take a look at yourself. You did that, you and nobody else, so stop blaming other people.

7. I worry about you, I hope my fears never come true.

8. It's horrible and ugly and wrong, but I'm jealous of you, and I know you'd laugh at that, but I can't help it.

9. I'm sorry now for all the times I wished it had been me instead of you. Sorry because now I'm so glad it wasn't, and that feels like I'm betraying your memory.

10. Whatever anyone says, I'll always blame myself. But in some ways, I think you'd hate that more than if I blamed you.


Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.



*He didn't really. Obviously. He just said I could if I wanted.

103 comments:

John H. D. Watson said...

...Now I'm paranoid. I hope I'm not #1 at least.

Greg Lestrade said...

You don't get to ask! I wanted to ask about yours... but decided to tell myself there's nothing you wouldn't feel comfotable telling me.... well, worth a try.

(No, you're not 1.)

REReader said...

NO! No asking who or what or anything! (At least not online, please!)

Greg Lestrade said...

I'm not about to tell him anything, RR, don't panic!

REReader said...

*breathes*

It's not that I mind if someone wants to tell, it's that I don't want anyone asking. (Especially not me, because, not nice.)

pandabob said...

the whole point is no asking I hope RR :-)

the other rule is no worrying I'm sure about that. people's minds are personal things although very interesting to see bits of :-)

Great Job Greg I didn't really think you would do it when you hadn't yesterday.

John H. D. Watson said...

I wouldn't ask anyone else, obviously. L's special.

Greg Lestrade said...

RR - I can't imagine why anyone would want to ask a stranger about theirs. Bit different when you're a couple though. Plus everyone who did it on John's blogs have had theirs up all day and no-one's asked or commented on any of them, barely. ALl taken it in the spirit of getting things off your chest.

AnonyBob - See, it's a cunning plan, to be a day behind Danger ;)

John H. D. Watson said...

a day behind Danger

Sounds like a dubious film title.

Oh, so I have to go first? I see how it is...

How are you doing? Is work keeping you busy?

pandabob said...

we all require you inspiration John ;-)

Tis a bit sneaky Greg!!

REReader said...

I wouldn't ask anyone else, obviously. L's special.
Bit different when you're a couple though.

Yes, definitely, that's why I added "not online". Because, please not giving anyone ideas, thank you! (Thank you for understanding, that is, not a snarky "thank you.")

It is interesting, though. Which is why I put up a list--turnabout and all.

Greg Lestrade said...

Bit busy. lots of files to read. I think this is linked to another case, waiting for my brain to supply any useful details.

Could be a long wait.

RR - I never imagine people on here communicate off-line. I suppose some of you know each other from elsewhere though, right? I always think of us as a bunch of strangers brought together by one Dangerous Continent-Conquering Doc.

pandabob said...

Mine are on my blog RR I'd happily answer questions there but I would never ask anyone here and I wouldn't answer I know lots of people in the world but this place belongs to Danger and Lestallion, what I say here stays here, what anyone else says here stays here RR tormenting the boys is what it's all about really ;-)

Good look with the brain problem Greg :-)

REReader said...

Well, I haven't met anyone here in person or anything like that, but I have communicated with a few via LJ private messaging--easy to do if people link their id's here with their LJ accounts. I guess that's not really offline, but it's not public, so I guess I should have said that.

But really I just meant to ask that if you and John wanted to talk about the lists--and I can certainly see how you might want to--if you could do it not on here. Which in retrospect I had and have no right to ask, and I'm sorry if it came across badly, but I was happy with no one asking anyone and don't want the floodgates opened.

REReader said...

I think this is linked to another case,

If you've already made that connection, I bet it doesn't take long as long as you think for "useful details" to present themselves.

Anon Without A Name said...

ReRe - I understand your concern, but like Lestrade said, what would be the point of asking anyone? I'm pretty sure that I've never heard of the people anyone is talking about; no-one here knows any of the people I was thinking of, no-one here even knows most of them exist. But I think it's OK for John and Lestrade to maybe tease each other a bit, and maybe even be a little bit insecure with each other - it's different situation for them.

I've found reading the lists fascinating, it's really quite a powerful thing, seeing a lot of heartfelt emotion being directed into a void of anonymity. Cathartic too, writing my own (so thanks, John, for offering up a safe space in which to do so).

I hope your evening is quiet but productive, Lestrade :-) And yeah, I've "met" a couple of people here elsewhere online, but only after "meeting" here first. I've not met anyone offline (as far as I'm aware - pseudonymity is a wonderful thing)

Greg Lestrade said...

RR - it's remembering which case it's linked to. It's the stab pattern that's famliar. And there's no shortage of stabbings I've seen

Nameless - that's it. I honestly don't have any sense of wanting to ask further about anyone's but John's, because I know I won't know who it is, so it would be pointless.

And John's...well, yeah, I'll just wonder quietly to myself. Or tikle him. One or the other ;)

REReader said...

Tickling is good. :D

John H. D. Watson said...

L - None of mine were even that bad!

pandabob said...

There is no such thing as 'that bad' with this John the whole point is it's your mind letting somethings out and no one (even greg) needs to know the details.

I've had a go at day two, any one else going to?

rabidsamfan said...

I recognize a few names here that I've seen elsewhere on the web, but none of them are people I know in person, so my mental image of them is probably linked to whatever is in their usericon anyway.

As for the lists -- well, I suppose there's some temptation to speculate as to whether or not you've mentioned the people you're "speaking" to in them here, but to be honest, I look at the various comments and either think "If someone were to say that to me, would it be needed? Would it be true?" or "I know who I want to say THAT to!" if I'm not just sort of mumbling past to the next item in line.

Greg Lestrade said...

Don't worry, Danger. Ignorance is bliss and all that.

I'm going out for breakfast with a DS from Gangs. I mean, having a meeting... might be gone a bit.

EBSanon said...

when is breakfast for a man who is up most of the time and living on caffine?

great contribution to the cause Greg, are we going to get your contribution to the other 9 days?

Greg Lestrade said...

Breakfast will be in about 30mins. It will involve at least 2 pints of coffee over a discussion about wound patterns.

I'll have scrambled eggs and black pudding, thanks , along with everything else and maybe an extra sausage :)

You may well get another 9 days, but quite possibly not consecutively.

Three continents, phone me if you're lonely. Long distance calls are expensive :)

pandabob said...

You shouldn't be sharing sausage with a gangs DS's surely? ;-)

I can imagine the next few days are going to be a bit intense for all of you without worrying about which day of the ten it is :-)

Don't work too hard will you? (obviously as hard as you need to just not so hard you're too exhausted for yellow car tomorrow!)

EBSanon said...

I'm not sure I could eat breakfast in those circumstances L but I guess MIT cops have strong stomachs or they would have died out by now!

REReader said...

You may well get another 9 days, but quite possibly not consecutively.

I cannot help but notice that no where in the Day 1, Day 2 listing does it say that they have to be consecutive days! I'll just wait for one of you to decide when Day 2 is. :)

Desert Wanderer said...

What is "everything else" in the context of breakfast? Full English?

rabidsamfan said...

I googled pictures of "black pudding" because I thought it was sort of sausage-ish already and found pictures of a full English breakfast. And now I'm ready to climb on a plane and come get one because it looks a lot better than anything I have in the house!

imachar said...

First to rabidsamfan there is nothing quite like a full English (or Scottish in my case) and it's one of the things I really miss about not living in the UK anymore; eggs, bacon (real bacon, not the sorry excuse for bacon that gets served in the US) sausage (see previous), fried bread, black pudding, fruit pudding (or fried dumpling) mushrooms and baked beans...heaven on a plate (also known as heart attack on a plate, but life's all about deciding which risks are worth it).

Meanwhile, I hope you're making some progress Greg, and hope you enjoyed your breakfast...

And

I've found reading the lists fascinating, it's really quite a powerful thing, seeing a lot of heartfelt emotion being directed into a void of anonymity. Cathartic too, writing my own (so thanks, John, for offering up a safe space in which to do so).

And can I just second Nameless's thank you to John. I had no idea how cathartic it would be to just throw things out into the ether like this with no expectation of having to talk further about them (although like others have said, I'm happy to do so on LJ because that's my space not John and Greg's).

I was awake until 2:00 this morning thinking about some of the people that I had "talked" to, and also about some of the potential responses for other days. It really, really made me think through some things that I hadn't thought about in years. And like pandabob I'm ready to make a stab at the next day whenever y'all are ready.

Desert Wanderer said...

What are you talking about "sorry excuse for bacon?!" British bacon is really ham from pigs that clearly spent their lives swimming in the sea. Real bacon is meant to be crisp, not...hammy. :P English breakfast is one of the few things I don't miss about England.

imachar said...

Sorry DW, to each their own... ;) I just really really miss Ayrshire bacon, with butter, on a bap (and a big mug of builder's tea to go with it).

Greg Lestrade said...

Well, breakfast tasted good to me :)

Desert Wanderer said...

'salright. You guys can have it. I don't eat much breakfast anyway; that's 15 more minutes I could be sleeping. ;)

Anonymous said...

Wow Greg, you're good at this. I can imagine John or some others in your life being paranoid about some of those numbers.

REReader said...

Did you and the DS from Gangs come up with anything helpful to go along with breakfast, L? (Or to put it another way--I hope tonight was better than last night.)

I hope to be asleep before you all head off to Scotland, so travel safe, guys!

(I'm awake now because I had a meditation class tonight that ran til 12:00 and only got back half an hour ago--traffic on the Cross Bronx.)

Greg Lestrade said...

Freedom! Scotland! In-laws.... wait..

;)

Desert Wanderer said...

Hurray! I'm glad you said so; trying to do timezone math makes my head hurt. Enjoy the trip. I'm sure you'll charm the sock off 'em!

Greg Lestrade said...

Yeah, just home to a world of packing and excited kids and dogs. Slightly less excited boyfriends.

Looks like we're taking the entire flat with us.

Anon - I didnt mean to make anyone paranoid!

Desert Wanderer said...

Socks in the plural, I mean. Although I suppose it's possible to charm just one sock off someone. Well, maybe not possible for you. You're definitely a two sock charmer. Definitely. Right, Doc?


...unless they don't wear socks.

Greg Lestrade said...

As long as I stop at two socks and don't start charming the pants off anyone...

Anon Without A Name said...

Have a good journey guys, and I hope it's not too painful once you're there.

Sherlock - perhaps it would be nice to hold off on a noisy game of Yellow Car until Lestrade's had a chance to get some sleep? There's plenty of time to play a bit later on, and the whole journey back :-)

pandabob said...

I hope you have a great trip and that you get a decent amount of sleep on the way Greg :-)

Are you staying with the inlaws? or do you have somewhere to 'escape' to at the end of the day?

I really hope it goes how you want it to John :-)

Desert Wanderer said...

As long as I stop at two socks and don't start charming the pants off anyone...

Aww, bad luck Doc.

Greg Lestrade said...

He isn't wearing any, DW.

(can say what I like, he's driving and unable to retaliate.)

Sherlock has already spotted a yellow car. Burst eardrums all round.

rabidsamfan said...

Sounds like it will be a noisy trip. Good luck trying to sleep between yellow cars!

rabidsamfan said...

I tipped back into bed for a bit after that last comment and dreamed that Sherlock had done a guest post about his holidays so far. I'm almost disappointed that it's turned out to just be a dream, because I wanted to know more about the ninjabreadmen vs. degu fireworks battle on top of Buckingham palace. (Yes, Sherlock, I know it's silly, but I was asleep!)

Sherlock said...

Lestrade was dreaming earlier and he jumped and made John jump and he's in the front seat which isn't fair and we're stopping for lunch soon because I'm hungry and Phobos is howling.

imachar said...

Hope you guys have a safe, relatively yellow car-free drive (in the interests of napping) and the family are good to you...

rabidsamfan said...

Sherlock, lunch soon sounds like a very good plan. Give you a chance to stretch your legs. In the US, the highways have rest stops, and most of the rest stops have a special corner for the dogs. I hope you have something similar, so that Phobos will stop howling. Have you seen many yellow cars so far? Or have you started playing car snooker?

Greg Lestrade said...

Is rather see a fleet of yellow cars than have one howling hound. But he's fine now.

REReader said...

Maybe after lunch you could tell us about your trip to the museum with Mycroft, Sherlock?

I'm glad Phobos has settled down...

Desert Wanderer said...

He isn't wearing any, DW.

Ah. You wasted no time once you got home, then, eh? Proper prior planning performed by policemen...

rabidsamfan said...

Are you sure Phobos wasn't just singing out when he spotted yellow cars? ;)

I wish I didn't have to work today. I could see how long it took you all to figure out how to play The Game.

Sherlock said...

Lestrade says he just lost the game when I read that out and I don't know what game it is but if he lost does that mean you won?

REReader said...

Rats, I lose The Game, too!

Sherlock, if you want to find out what The Game is, go to http://www.losethegame.com . But once you know what it is, you lose, so if you don't want to lose, you can't know what it is. (It's VERY unfair--but I didn't make it up, so it's not my fault!)

rabidsamfan said...

LoL! That wasn't "The Game" I was thinking of,
RR, but now I've definitely lost it.

My "The Game" is different.

It's a game of red, but not yellow.
It's a game of knock, but not door.
It's a game of crunch and smash, but not destroy...

Sherlock said...

ReReader that sounds like a stupid game if all you do is lose. Sometimes Lestrade and John play a stupid game called Mornington Crescent and it's pointless and when I say so they just laugh.

Your game sounds more interesting RabidSamFan.

rabidsamfan said...

Thank you, Sherlock. I like Lestrade's game and Mornington Crescent, but mine is trickier.

When you think you know what my game is about, then ask me by giving me an example, but don't forget to doublecheck by also giving me a counter-example of something that isn't in the game too.

Here are three more clues.

It's a game of storms but not thunder.
It's a game of push but not shove.
It's a game of smart but not intelligent.

John H. D. Watson said...

Clocks but not time?

rabidsamfan said...

That's right, John. Give me another example so I know you've got it, then you can join in.

REReader said...

Definitely a different game, RSF! (But I'm pretty sure that's the one L meant. :))

Sherlock, it IS a stupid game in that there is no way to win once you know about it. That's why I just gave you the link and the warning instead of telling you about it! (I think the fun part is supposed to be tricking people into playing it. :/) I had to look up Mornington Crescent--I think the point of that game is being silly, which can be quite fun if you're in the mood. (But not so much if you're not, of course.)

I hope you have fun playing RSF's game, it sounds most intriguing!

rabidsamfan said...

:D You can play too, RR, if you like. The fun thing about this game is that you don't have to be old or young. When I took it back to my family reunion we had people playing from 5 to 75. (And it was the people in the middle who had to think the hardest!)

I'm at lunch, so if you need more clues, Sherlock, just ask.

REReader said...

Thank you, RSF, I'll give it a good think! :) (I'm out the door and offline in a minute--but hopefully i'll have an idea by the time I get home... :D)

John H. D. Watson said...

Socks but not shoes?

rabidsamfan said...

Yup. Very good, John! So now you know why it's a game of John but not Lestrade (or Sherlock!)

:D

Anonymous said...

Is it a game of window but not glass?

ryo

pandabob said...

How many of your nine hours do you still have to go John/Greg? I hope it's been a simple trip :-)

I don't understand the game RSF and unless you're going to promise to tell us what it is at some point I'm going to stop my brain thinking about it any further for fear of sending myself nuts (yes I know I'm already nuts before anyone points it out!) ;-)

Anonybob

Sherlock said...

I want to know but if John got it I want to get it too without more help.

rabidsamfan said...

Ryo, it's a game of glass but not window.

More clues:

It's a game of one but not three.
It's a game of win, but not lose.
It's a game of spin, and turn, but not rotate.

And pandabob, it's a game of nuts, but not cheese! (and yes, I promise to explain eventually.)

Desert Wanderer said...

Lambs but not sheep?

rabidsamfan said...

Yes, DW. Have you got another?

Desert Wanderer said...

Welsh but not British?

rabidsamfan said...

Yup! :D

I'm going to have to go back to work in a few minutes, but I'll sneak in every so often to see if you've figured it out, Sherlock. (And Mycroft too, if he wants to play.)

It is, alas, a game of work but not pleasure. *sigh*

Sherlock said...

I thought I knew but then you said one but not three and now I don't know again and it's not fair!

rabidsamfan said...

Argh! I goofed! It's a game of two but not one or three, and I'm SORRY, but I had people interrupting my lunch and wanting computer help and I didn't double check. *headdesk*

This is why I shouldn't try doing two things at once.

You can start a game with a new rule, if you want and make me try to guess it, because if you can see why "one" shouldn't have been right, you got it perfect.

rabidsamfan said...

*throws ashes on her head*

I'm really quite sorry. That wasn't fair at all.

Anonymous said...

hers but not theirs?

rabidsamfan said...

Yes, anon. And his but not ours, too!

REReader said...

I got it on the train--and just like you, Sherlock, I was thrown by "one", but since you fixed that, RSF--

Black but not blue?
Wash but not clean?

rabidsamfan said...

Yes, RR. I feel really bad about that, but I had to retype the entire comment because the first version went wonky and I messed up my example. And then when I got back from lunch we had the fun of dealing with a belligerent drunk and had to call the police.

I don't know if Sherlock will ever forgive me. :(

John H. D. Watson said...

Don't worry about it, he's just happy he got it right after all!

REReader said...

Oh, I don't think you need to worry about that, RSF! For one thing, it proved that he really did figure it out, and also he knows that you don't get yelled at for accidents, right Sherlock? (And it was a really good think, too--thank you, RSF, I enjoyed that!)

rabidsamfan said...

Yay! It's a good car game, because the rule can be very flexible. The first time I learned it three of the clues were:

It's a game of spelling but not words
It's a game of teeth but not mouths
and
It's a game of mirrors but not reflections

It took me a long time to figure out the game by myself, but I was too shy to ask the people who were playing how to do it, so I just had to think harder. I hope it made the trip to Scotland less monotonous for all of you!

Anonymous said...

It's a game of three but not two?

rabidsamfan said...

Yes, in the new game it would be a game of three but not two. You catch on fast, anon!

mazarin said...

*sulks*

I feel highly stupid today.

*sulks more*

Greg Lestrade said...

Maz - I don't get it either.

But I have got an armful of Sherlock, because Mr and Mrs Watson's house is full of things which a Sherlock who's been confined to a car for nearly ten hours shouldn't be allowed near...

(They're very nice, by the way. And we're all off out for dinner.)

rabidsamfan said...

Maz, I promise I'll explain it next time I get a chance to sit down. But if you want to keep trying, just remember that all of the clues before 19:40 are the first play of the game and the other examples after 19:40 are just showing a different way to play it.

REReader said...

So the new game would be a game of sweeping and brooms but not dust, whereas the original would be the opposite? :)

I'm sure an armful of Sherlock is a nice thing to have. Have fun at dinner!

Anonymous said...

hills but not mountains?

pandabob said...

I hope you all enjoy dinner :-)

I'm glad you made it with a Sherlock who was still fit for company :-) travelling can have very strange effects on kids sometimes!!

(tis good to know Mr and Mrs Watson are lovely people :-) )

Anonybob

John H. D. Watson said...

Pillow but not blanket?

and now i'm putting my phone away before I get told off

Desert Wanderer said...

Needed and necessary but nor required?

Greg Lestrade said...

I tried putting mine away. Got pickpocketed. Still, at least if he gets bored he can bother you lot and not John's parents.

REReader said...

It'd be no bother! :)

Desert Wanderer said...

Plrased to be of service, Lestrade. :). Enjoy yourselves.

Anon Without A Name said...

How was the weather on the way up? It looked atrocious on the forecast.

I must admit I feel a tiny bit sorry for Sherlock, having been stuck in the car all day, and nowhere to run off all that pent-up energy.

Hope you all have a lovely dinner :-)

rabidsamfan said...

Yes to RR, Anon, John, and DW for the new round.

For them that are completely frustrated, I had to explain this once before here:

http://rabidsamfan.dreamwidth.org/44808.html

Oh, no! Bookvalanche! Back later!

REReader said...

Don't get buried, RSF!

Anonymous said...

Russia but not England
William but not Henry

-ryo

Sherlock said...

Eggs but not ham
a million but not a thousand

I put up a new post because dinner is boring blogging not talking

dinner not lunch

pudding not mains

rabidsamfan said...

Yes, Ryo and Sherlock you are both right, and I like your examples, Sherlock. And now I'm going to look at your new post.

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