It's not just lust now. Not just dreaming and looking at pictures...
Now it's the real thing. It's love. It's knowing when you've found the right one, the one that fits with you...
The bike was beautiful, and rode like a dream. Felt like a dream, with a beautiful new ride under me, and Danger hanging on the back. Can't believe I let that bastard Bryan talk me out of it for so long.
Now I've got to start the tedious bit, of course, the paperwork and the insurance quotes and everything else.
And, of course, ask Danger if he enjoyed it enough to get his own gear. I did promise him a nice jacket for his birthday (which I gave him! Danger Sparkles, oh yes.), but I think he needs a bit of leather. Denim doesn't cut it when it comes to road rash. Might even buy him a nice shiny helmet. Possibly some leather trousers.
I feel terrible about what he saw yesterday. I feel like a total idiot. And a bastard. Because while he was in there suffering in silence Sal and I were enjoying our food and being stupid - laughing and joking. Not because we don't care. But because we had to learn to deal with these things, and thats one way to do it. I wish he'd told me how he felt when he was with me - but I can understand why he didn't.
There are, horrible to say, some cases when you're a copper that you just work, get it done, and forget about. But there are plenty you wake you up sweating about, too. Plenty that stay with you for life. And you have to deal with it, or you'd go mad. I think John underestimated the effect that having the boys has had on him. I know it's changed me. I know he's seen horrible things - things I can't even contemplate. But sometimes it's easy to forgot what goes on here, on your own doorstep, too. And realise what some people are capable of doing to kids.
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First rule of pillion kit: they get to choose.
Second rule of pillion kit: they get gear that's as good as the rider's. I somehow don't think you'll fall into that trap but you do see it so often, the rider in full gear and the girlfriend on the back in a leather jacket if that.
Third rule of pillion kit: wear earplugs! (that goes for you too. Not only does it save your hearing you are less tired and more alert.)
So which colour then?
And which extras?
Motorcycles are brilliant, you can get me a proper jacket, and I am on no account wearing leather trousers because I would look ridiculous.
As for the rest...I still don't really know what to say about it, but it's not your fault. I think I'm mostly surprised I'm still capable of feeling that much to be honest.
"Two wheels move the soul." I like that. Motorcycles are beautiful, and I demand pictures if and when you bring one home. :D And yes. John needs leather, even laying motorcycles aside. :D
You shouldn't feel like an idiot or a bastard. It's not your fault. You thought it might upset him, and you told him so; and you couldn't know how much it affected him if he didn't say anything. Not to say that it's John's fault either! He simply didn't anticipate how much the pictures and all would bother him. And he probably didn't say anything at first because he didn't want you to feel bad, or because he thought he could just power through it and not be really bothered in that lingering way.
Sometimes it's nobody's fault. There's nothing for either of you to feel guilty or ashamed about.
As for coping mechanisms, there's no way John's going to fault you for that.
John, don't be a doofus; you're a doctor, you know what "road rash" looks like. My mate came off hid bike a few years ago. Because he was wearing a full face crash helmet, he didn't smear his face across the road; because he was wearing leather jacket and gloves his chest and hands survived intact rather than being flayed. Because he was wearing jeans, he left the skin off the front of his legs all over the tarmac. Wasn't a pleasant sight, and he assured me it felt worse then it looked.
Also, seconding everything Lindsay said.
What Lindsay said. There's no need to feel guilty; you warned him and offered him an out, and he chose not to take it. I assume that given his past experiences, he didn't think it'd bother him that much, and he probably wanted to spend time with you rather than have you come downstairs to get the food. That would have been rather impersonal.
Now you both know: when the victim's a child, it's better that he not see the photos up on the murder board.
Awww. just... awwww. I'm sorry about that case, but I can't help focusing in the sweet side of this post. :) It's pretty good that you've found the one, I'm happy for you! And I'm glad for the boys too. It's seems that having you and John around has changed them, too, hasn't it? :)
Anon- ...If he gets them and actually wears them I will too. But I'm not looking absurd all by myself.
And L - listen to the nice people. You did warn me. It's not your fault I didn't listen.
and I am on no account wearing leather trousers because I would look ridiculous
Ok, and I'll just ride around London in my boxers and flipflops. Or perhaps go and get the cheesegrater out of the kitchen and go at my legs with it.
You're getting proper trousers if you're on the back of the bike. If you don't want leather you get the waterproof armoured safety ones. You don't get to spread your flesh on the tarmac.
Do these go over regular trousers? I can't see you wearing them at work all day. Do you just change when you get there? Wearing them when I'm actually on the bike is not an issue.
I suppose you're not going to listen to the argument that you'd look pretty hot in leather trousers. Well, I suppose if you realized how gorgeous you both were you'd be insufferable.
I'm not surprised how much of an unexpected influence Mycroft and Sherlock have had on John. Everything becomes different and when you haven't had 12 years, or even 12 months to get used to that idea it can be a surprise when you realize it.
You can get some to go over regular trousers - but I'd take clothes to work and change, most of the time. If I had to be somewhere like court, I might chuck a pair of overtrousers on, so I could wear a suit.
I shall go and find some nice suggestions for you. You should listen to Kholly there. You would look sensational in some leathers.
Wearing them anywhere shouldn't be an issue. bike, bedroom - I mean, flat...out and about. anywhere.
Kholly has the excuse of only having seen one not-especially-good photo of me, whereas you know perfectly well I'm short and middle aged and will look extremely mid-life-crisisy.
It'll be worth it though. I had a fantastic time.
The following are acceptable - for safety and for my viewing pleasure.
Some very fetching non-leather jeans.
Some overtrousers.
More normal looking...
And you can choose whatever you like. But I think something like this would suit you - on or off the bike. You'd look amazing.
I definitely agree on the jacket. No opinion on the trousers, really.
Ok, I'm drooling over that jacket even before you get John into it.
Yeah, adding my hearty approval of that jacket to the general consensus. :)
Huh. Well. They're not as bad as I feared, actually. Although I question why they got the Terminator to model their jeans. And Slix sounds like a porno. Anyhow, you pick and I'll order them, as you're going to be the one looking at them and I'll be the one avoiding looking at them as much as possible.
That was a lot of whinging about clothes just now, wasn't it? Sorry. I like the jacket. Quite a lot, actually.
And don't worry about looking mid-life crisisy. That would have only been a legitimate concern if a) you didn't have a bike you were expecting to ride, and b) you were wearing the leathers in a pathetic attempt to pick up women 10 years younger than you. I think you're safe even if you're not particularly tall.
Ok, you lot can all go and play, if you want.
http://www.triumph.co.uk/uk/configuratorPopup.aspx
That's the page to 'build your own' bike.
Rider - Street Triple R, probably Phantom Black. Accessories to be decided.
Danger - we'll go to a shop and you can try some stuff on, find things that are comfy and fit right. Glad you like the jacket. I think that styling will suit you - but you should have a look at others, see what you think.
And you're not short. You're the perfect height.
I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Having said you're not short...were you really comfy on the back? Most people think the pegs are a little high. How long do you think you could sit comfortably for?
Built a bike. Wouldn't let me put a hot doctor on the back of it though :-(
Oh, very nice choice Lestrade!
Adding to the chorus of approval on that jacket.
Why are you constantly trying to take me shopping?
About the pegs, they seem fine? Maybe a touch high for being on it for hours, but are we going to be on it for hours? Do they move?
Danger, you do realize that taking you shopping for trousers is basically a thinly disguised excuse to stare at your behind? Or, you know, you in general?
Anyway, fitting an attractive person out in attractive clothing is fun!
annoyedwabbit - You know, that hadn't occurred to me actually. But it explains so much.
Definitely go for that jacket.
Did you manage to go to Mycroft's skating lesson?
Also, I will point out that taking you shopping for clothes you hopefully won't need without him around is essentially the non-creepy version of jumping up and down and yelling "MINE! MINE MINE MINE!"
Which is rather adorkable, really.
Toodle,
Bronwyn
Heh. I cannot wait to see L's reaction to your theory.
I'm not constantly trying to take you shopping! We've been...twice? And the first time was because I'd rather trust your opinion on a suit than someone who's employed to sell m e the most expensive suit they possibly can.
And this is because you need the gear (I'm assuming, as you're already basically kitting yourself out, that I am buying the bike?) and you need to be comfy in whatever we buy. Far easier to just go to the shop and try things on - even if we then order online for a better price. If you've never worn armoured jeans before you have no idea what you'll find comfy. In fact, everything's moved on so much since I last wore this stuff that I probably don't, either. And sometimes sizing is weird. And you need a helmet.
It is an excellent excuse to stare at your arse, too.
I think Bronwyn's theory is a bit flawed though. I'm taking you out to buy safety gear because I very much enjoyed the opportunity for very public cuddles from you when you were on the back of the bike. And because if I was ever responsible for you getting hurt on it I would never forgive myself. If I was the possessive type you'd be wearing a collar and a leash.
Now there's a thought...
Anon - we did! Mycroft is very talented. I didn't know what to expect, given he hasn't had lessons for long, but he's amazing! And very, very determined. And bloody fast! I was tempted to get on the ice...but didn't want to show him up. Maybe one day he'll take me and Danger for a bit of a lesson. Show us how it's done. That way I might be half decent by the time the open air ice rinks go up around Christmas, and we could all go together, which would be very nice.
He's very good at explaining why you have to do certain things/what works/what makes you go faster or not fall over. And far too modest.
Mycroft FTW!
The bike will be very cool and I wish I could see it in action. I wonder if Mycroft is thinking of going pro with the skating, he's probably tallented enough to take over the world with computers and pro skate on the side. Also I just noticed that the poll only has three days to go, does that mean that Nicky will be here then?
Lindsay - ""Two wheels move the soul." I like that. " I feel I should point out I didn't come up with this. It's an old biker saying. "Four wheels move the body, two wheels move the soul." No idea who came up with it, but sadly not me.
Anon - Nicky is here tomorrow! And my flat still isn't entirely tidy...
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